14; More thoughts – This time about slavery, rules and punishment

And what a discussion that was…

I tried to make my point clear and although Miss Tyee approved of my heartiness it seemed they did not comprehend my motivation for my actions. I felt misunderstood and left alone. 

In the following I will explain my motivation and what exactly obsessed me to ask the Empress to spare Miss Tyee this time.

During this discussion I got a very clear message from both Miss Tyee and Kitti: RULES ARE RULES. Well, no surprise there and I know how important it is to follow rules, regulations and orders. But there is no rule without exception and probably the worst thing in the world is a slave that follows every order without thinking about it. 

Let’s get this straight before someone jumps to wild conclusions about me. When a punishment is justified I won’t even dare to hesitate obeying my Mistress’s orders. No matter how harsh the punishment would seem to me. The Mistress has her own good reasons for her deeds and it is not my place to question them. Also I would love to endure or be the executing part for my Mistress in any torture that is for her amusement. The pain is part of why we are her anyway, is it not? A punishment however, has to be justified. Otherwise it would be meaningless.

The roman goddess for justice, Iustitia, is often displayed as blind women. Her credo is “In dubio pro reo” which means doubt favors the accused one. Iustitia does not obey to whom who has the most money or the most power. She obeys justice only. And when it comes to punishment, so do I. Even if this would result in punishment for me, at least I would have a good conscience.

There is even another problem that troubled me. Let’s pretend for the moment I would have carried out the punishment according to the rules. I do not know what the Empress would have ordered but I think a good old fashioned spanking would have done the trick. While swinging the whip on Miss Tyee’s wonderful shaped bum, my heart never could have possibly acknowledged it as punishment. Thus it would not have been any fun. This leads me to “the paradox of the rules”.

The rules are:

1.       Have fun
2.       Obey

I am sure you already see the predicament. How can I possibly follow the second rule, when in order to do so I have to violate the first one? And although I called this a paradox I like to think of it as a failsafe to prevent unjustified actions. Or as Iustitia would say: In dubio pro reo.

At the end I would like to state that slavery and servitude are not only about following orders blindly. The major task of a slave is to please her Mistress. And mostly that does indeed mean following orders without questioning them. But the slave should think about them in order to understand her Mistresses desires and to carry them out in the best interest of her Mistress. Of course I cannot speak for other Mistresses but if I were a Mistress I would like my slaves to have the courage to stand up when rights are violated.

Final note:

I know that such situations are what safewords are for, but this case shows how my heart looks from the inside and I just had to write about it.

Diane’s Slut a.k.a. Tyee’s Puppy

Slave lawyer ;-)

13; My Quest for a Spreader Bar

First off all: HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 !!!

The first one I met in this New Year was indeed the Empress. When she came on I greeted her with proper respect and my best wishes for the New Year. I was called to what I think is her place and she gave me a communications device. After the instructions how it works I asked if I may state a request. The Empress was willing to hear me out so I asked her to spare Miss Tyee for my mistake. Of course she asked me why she should do so and I gave her two of my reasons.

First because it was not Miss Tyee who taught me the rules in the first place. I do know this reason is rather thin because Miss Tyee is still responsible for me.

As second reason I told the Empress that I had to recite the rules before and never got them wrong before. I also stated that this mistake occurred only from my nervousness in Empress's presence. Miss Tyee however has no influence on my nervousness. Based on this I took full responsibility for my own mistake. 

When the Empress asked me who should be punished instead of Miss Tyee I answered that I alone am to be punished. I think she liked my dedication for Miss Tyee and granted my wish to spare Miss Tyee if I would find an item for her. Her orders were to find a spreader bar in which I was still able to walk around even when tied up. She said she does not know if such a thing even existed but I was given a week to complete my Quest. Furthermore I was told to keep record of the places I visit on my journey and to report my progress or the lack of it via IM every day. After I was dismissed I took off to complete my task to Empress’s full satisfaction.

First I visited some places I know to have good Bondage and BDSM stuff:

Xcite! Main Store

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Eventide%20East/103/132/35

 

Sexy Sluts RLV Dungeon

http://slurl.com/secondlife/XXX/15/74/30

 

Cerdita Main Store

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Pengo%20Plaza/0/0/16

 

When this did not work, I took a look at the SL Marketplace and found this:

https://marketplace.secondlife.com/p/Spreader-Bar/163242
 

Of course i could have stopped my journey at this moment and report to Empress about my success but I got curious and carried on my search. I entered the term “spreader bar” into SL search and found some others:

VR Foundry

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Matriarch/55/129/23

 

Dead Realm

http://slurl.com/secondlife/dead%20realm/153/158/597

 

Damsel BDSM Malls

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Damsel/103/235/24

 

The last one is a very huge mall and I did not locate the spreader bar, but according to search results there must be one around somewhere.

By this time Miss Tyee had joined me and I filled her in on the most recent events. She made me show her my findings and decided for the first one that I found at the Marketplace. After that I reported my success to the Empress as ordered. Miss Tyee and I were soon joined by Kitti and Kiwi (Vacky) and I told them the whole story.

My behavior in this matter resulted in a discussion with Miss Tyee and Kitti where I found myself not to be understood completely.

12; My first encounter with Empress Aphrodite Rayna

The last time I was with Miss Tyee she suddenly told me to get naked, because the Empress had summoned us. I did as I was told but I also got a little nervous instantly. Although I knew very little about the Empress I already had a picture in my mind. For no reason at all I figured her to be strict, demanding, ruthless and harsh. My imagination surly can get ahead of myself sometimes…

When I faced the Empress for the first time I quickly made her owner of my collar as a sign of respect. She noticed this gesture with a kind “Thank you” and broke the ice this way. I still was nervous as a toad crossing the highway but I felt more comfortable already. My former picture of her faded away and I opened my heart to get to know her better.

We talked about my place at her feet and about my limits. She made sure I understood my role as her servant and that I have to follow her orders to the letter. And then it happened: the Empress asked me about the basic rules and I got them in the wrong order…

If only a trapdoor would have been beneath me, I would have gladly used it at that moment. I know I am not perfect and I make my mistakes just like any other human being. But such a stupid one has rarely occurred to me before. There are only two rules: 

1.       Have fun
2.       Obey

Miss Tyee seemed very ashamed of me and I apologize to her from the bottom of my heart. But what troubled me the most is that for a slaves mistake the Trainer gets punished by her slaves hand. In this case it would have been Miss Tyee who would receive a punishment from my very own hand. Normally I would agree completely to this measure of disciplining for it provides punishment to both the slave and the Trainer. In this specific case however my sense of justice jumped in and I knew I could not let this happen. 

After the interview I was ordered to play with myself for Empress’s amusement. Unfortunately Miss Tyee had to go away to attend to one of her tenants so after what I thought was a good start I had to rush to the end. After we were dismissed Miss Tyee and I departed and she dealt with her customer. I apologized to her for my mistake but she had her hands and mind full with other things. I myself had to go off then and went to bed with a guilty conscience.

So for my next time I prepared some good reasons why Miss Tyee should be spared and I waited to see the Empress again.

11; My trainer Miss Tyee Maximus

Until now I have neglected to tell about Miss Tyee Maximus who has been assigned to train me. The reason for this is simply because there wasn’t much to tell…

I met Miss Tyee for the first time during my sex with David. Before that Miss Yootz and Kitti agreed that we would be a perfect match due our mutual interest in Bondage. First I did not know what to think about being trained by someone completely strange to me. But on the other hand I was a stranger to Miss Tyee as well.

From that time on we met several times. I found Miss Tyee to be a very kind woman and soon began to profit from her experience. Sadly most of the time she is well occupied to make sure her tenants are comfortable. She is very busy with her job at her rental properties and I rarely had the chance to admire such a devotion to someone’s work. When it comes to the rental matter I feel I am more of an apprentice then a slave. Miss has shown me most of the houses and how she interacts with her costumers.

My slave training on the other hand lies somewhat dormant. It is my opinion that Miss wants me to know about the business first and I will not question her methods or her approach to my training. Maybe someday when Miss finds me fit enough to help her in her business we can divide the work and double the fun.

Miss Tyee gave me a name of her own: “Tyee’s Puppy” and provided me with a set of rules:

1.       I can't IM anyone when I am with Miss Tyee. I can only send one IM which allows me to greet someone and tell them to contact Miss Tyee in case they want to speak with me.
2.       I have to appear with uncovered breasts, pussy and ass in front of miss Tyee unless ordered other ways
3.       i have to assume a kneeling position with my knees spread when i am with miss Tyee
4.       I can remove my restraints 45 minutes after Miss Tyee is offline. Not before that
5.       I can do anything and everything while Miss Tyee is gone, but when if she comes online, i have to be dressed and restrained exactly as she left me.
6.       I am expected to be completely honest with Miss Tyee, even if i am facing any dilemmas.
 

Of course I will follow those rules to the letter.

Diane’s Slut a.k.a. Tyee’s Puppy

10; More thoughts about the Ring of Submission

The first one that read my thoughts about the Ring of Submission was Kitti. When she was finished she lectured me about the depth of the ring which I was not aware of. She told me to draw a circle on a piece of paper and write the attributes of the ring clockwise around it, starting with love on top and equal distance between them. It was at the third one, Honesty, when a faint smile appeared on my face. When she finally instructed me to draw lines from love to honesty, from honesty to surrender and so on, my faint smile immediately developed into a broad joyful grin. 

On the figure below you can see the result of my drawing:

 

To be honest, I bit my tail I did not see for myself in the first place. 

Kitti taught me the next feature is always nourished by the previous one, meaning love feeds devotion, devotion feeds honesty and so on. The lines on the other hand show how love, for example, controls honesty.

If you wonder by now why I had such a grin you have to understand my passion for mathematics and geometry. When it became clear to me the lines would form the diagonals of a pentagon i.e. a pentagram, I suddenly realized why the ring appeared to be so harmonious to me from the very beginning.

But why would a pentagram make me smile? Because a pentagram has two very special characteristics. The first one is the fact that inside the pentagram there is a small pentagon in which you can draw diagonals again, creating a smaller upside-down pentagram.

See for yourself on the figure below:

 

Of course there is another even smaller pentagon inside. And of course this one can also be filled with its diagonals:

 

Long story short: one can play this game for all eternity and would never reach the end. To me this is sort of proof to my statement that the circle never ends.

The second characteristic is the cutting of the diagonals. 

 

The diagonals of a pentagram cut each other at a specific ratio: 

D/d' = d'/d'' = 1.618033….

This number is called Φ (Greek capital letter phi) and is an irrational number, meaning it goes on for all eternity never repeating itself. Just like π and love.

The ratio itself is called the “golden section” and is considered a natural harmonic. Anywhere it appears, natural or artificial, the viewer finds a very special esthetic view.

One might think now I approach the whole thing of the Ring of Submission only in a theoretical and technical way, leaving out all the feelings. Rest assured, nothing could be further from the truth. I am well aware this ring stands for a way of life and has to be lived with heart and passion. I also know that the mind and rational thinking can never explain the true nature of love, devotion, honesty, obedience and surrender. The mind is merely a tool to analyze the ring and can be used to see how it works and how the corners are connected.

At the end my sincere thank goes to Miss Diane Yootz, who taught me the very foundation of the Ring of Submission and to my sister Kitti, who explained to me how deep and well thought the Ring is.

With guidance from my Mistress and help from my Sister, I look forward to explore the depths of the Ring of Submission.

Diane´s Slut

09; My friend Vacky Admiral

What a great day. I finally met Mistress Diane again and was also granted the privilege to introduce her to my dearest SL friend Vacky Admiral. Interestingly I met Vacky at Susan´s just like Miss Diane. Only that I met Vacky a lot earlier. Let me tell you how.

It was in the beginning of my second Second Life approach. Shy as I was at this time, I often roamed the land on my own, trying out what I found. At Susan´s however there was a game where one could roll the dice. Without any success I tried to play the game when I got my first glimpse at Vacky Admiral. I am not sure anymore who talked to whom first but she explained that this game needed two people to play with. Although I sensed the game was rather boring to her she played it with me, explaining the rules. It really was not that exciting…

After the game it almost seemed like a parting but somehow we began to talk about Bondage and related things. From this day on we often played with each other switching roles or trying to find a mistress for both of us. She is the one who taught me the major part of my knowledge about RLV, the relays, collars and all sorts of other stuff. She was the first person in SL I befriended and she is still very, very special to me.

So on this last time I met Miss Diane, I asked her if I may introduce her to a friend of mine. When Miss and Vacky met for the first time it seemed they understood each other perfectly. Vacky did very well in the initial interview and I think she got the amount of respect towards Miss perfectly balanced with her most delightful sense of humor and her feeling for devotion. Of course a humble slave like me cannot speak for her Mistress but I felt Miss Diane was rather fond of Vacky at the very first moment.

When Miss Tyee and my sister Kitti joined the group Vacky and I were taken to a dungeon where I was bound to a bench. Vacky on the other hand had to please me with her tongue while she was “encouraged” by Miss Tyee with a whip. She did a hell of a job down at my crotch which made me climax very quickly. And, if I might add, my compassion for Vacky made it easy for me to orgasm quickly, for this meant her punishment would hopefully stop. 

Next Vacky was tied to a cross and tortured further by Miss Tyee. I on the other hand had to go off because it was time for my comfy RL bed. Guess that’s what you get when all your playmates are in a different time zone. But hey, that’s quite normal in SL. I hope Vacky obeyed the first of Mistress´s rules to the letter: have fun. 

Actually, I am sure she did ;-)

08; My thoughts about the Ring of Submission

Ring of Submission

Love leads to devotion leads to honesty leads to obedience which leads to surrender which leads back to greater love completes the circle.

At the beginning

Love is the very base of every relationship. Without it no relation will work out. One has to realize that love is no one way. It has to be given and received in order to make the relation satisfactory to all parties.

Going further

Most people are just fine with love as it is. They don´t need or want more or even know there is more. In a D/s relationship however, devotion plays a very important role. A slave has to devote herself to serve her mistress, while the mistress is responsible for the slave.

Always tell the truth

In my opinion honesty is the most valuable part of the ring. I think it is no coincidence that it is in the middle of the ring, holding it together. A slave must never lie to her mistress. Next to honesty there is justness. Even a slave deserves to be treated fairly and with respect. Any good mistress will acknowledge this fact to strengthen the bond between herself and the slave.

Obey your mistress

Nothing brings more shame upon a mistress then a disobedient slave. A slave has to obey her mistress´s orders to the letter. If she fails to do so she will be punished. That is the way of things in a D/s relationship. In case of emergency a slave is free to make use of a safeword provided by her mistress. When the safeword is used, the mistress will stop whatever she is doing and ask the slave about her objections. The safeword is a security option only and should not be used lightheaded.

Bow to your mistress

Any slave will gladly surrender to a mistress which she loves and trusts. The mistress will be in complete control of her slave and her slave’s fate. It would seem the slave has given up her freedom to her mistress but this is only partially true. Of course it´s up to the mistress but even a slave can have much freedom if granted. Much more important are the protection and security which the slave gets in return from her mistress.

Full circle

Any properly made step in the ring of submission leads to even greater love. One should not think this is the end or some goal of the ring which in my opinion turns out to be more like an endless coil. Love is an infinite feeling that can expand endlessly. Thus the circle will never end.